W:I:S:H:E:S

I just want to run away from here... From who I am... From everything, from everyone.... I just want to leave. Everything is causing pain. One of my best friends is leaving. My dad has made me so mad that I've felt like throwing up for the past hour. A person that I have considered a best friend for many months now, has decided that he cares about no one, nor anything. I thought I had fallen in love, with someone worthy of it. I was wrong, go figure. I'm wrong about everything now-a-days. Nothing is right... nothing is how it should me. I just want to run away. I want to cry. I want to scream until my voice fails and I can never speak again. I just want to release myself from all emotion, so I never have to feel anything for anyone again. There is two truths in my life right now.

The first is my religion, my God. Unchanging, unmovable. I know I can get through this with him.

But the only other I have... I'm scared to even name, for fear that even that will fall to be a lie. Everything else seems to, why not the very small bit of trust I have left in the human race? why not? Why not just finish crushing me and be done with it. Break me into a bloody pulp, at least then I know that I can truly sink no lower. At least then the only way out will be up.

-Wishes-